Scattered
The past few days I’ve felt incredibly scattered. I’m certainly being pulled in many, many directions with the new mortgage, a kid on the way, and potential career shifts in play. Yet in some ways I feel things are going as smoothly as could be expected - I just don’t feel I’m able to be as present for some things as I usually am.
I’ve really noticed that I struggle to listen attentively to conversations that in the past were very easy to stay focused upon. It isn’t that I lose interest, or that I’m plotting my response too quickly - it’s more that the words start getting scrambled before my mind grabs them and puts them into thoughts. I notice the words scrambling, and then force myself to concentrate… I never used to have to work to listen… But at least I notice, right? It could be worse… I could not know the difference — shudder — Wouldn’t that be scary?
Maybe if I get some sleep… and cross a few things off my TODO list tomorrow… hopefully then I’ll start to pick up the pieces and feel less scattered.