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We all have a tendency to think that we’re pretty decent people.  When we’re feeling honest we’ll admit that we have a few, mostly minor, flaws - no quirks, flaws is too strong - that we’re not too proud of.  But for the most part, we’re still decent, and we’re able to compensate with our strengths to minimize the impact of these “quirks.” 

Then one day something changes - a crack appears in the fascade of our decent personal image that we hold so dear.  We say something we didn’t mean to say, or explode with rage at the worst possible moment, or become insanely jealous over a small oversight.  We realize that we aren’t as great as we’d like to think - in fact, we’re worried that there are more cracks than we really know. 

Often we decide to patch the crack instead of removing the fascade.  We rationalized that our flaw is not as big as our college roommate’s, or our co-worker’s, or whoever else we can find who is worse off.  We tell ourselves that it was just a one time slip, not really representative of any character issues.  In fact, it was a minor slip at that.  We convince ourselves that we can manage the situation.  Then the crack comes back - often accompanied by tiny hairline cracks that are beginning to grow.

I was confronted with a crack in my fascade yesterday.  I won’t go into the details - I’m not sure I’m ready to talk about a small crack when I know it is only the beginning.  My Dad always said God gives us kids to grow US up.  Maybe that’s what is happening.  I like to think God sees me as a work in progress - and removing the fascade, not just patching it, is another step in the refinement of my character.  Hopefully I can remain honest about it - and resist the urge to cover it up.  It is tempting to try to appear better than I really am, but I know I need to let go of the fascade and rest in God’s refinement process.

This entry was posted on Wednesday, January 4th, 2006 at 7:46 am by Jeff Pruett and is filed under General. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.